Why don't they just do something! Annie and Skye have known each other for at least two years now. They know they like each other. They've been on outings by themselves (I consider them dates but Annie doesn't think of them that way).

WHY WON'T THEY DO SOMETHING?!

Plus, they're cute together. Ha! Annie would kill me if she heard me say that.

But something bothers me about the 'what-if-they-get-married?' I mean, Skye is kind of a criminal... and Annie goes on long trips to take care of her sickly father's farm. How would that work out, exactly?

Ha. Maybe I should stop hanging around with these kind of people? Dawn says they're too old for me, but I bet Ami has friends eactly the same age as Annie and Fred! Probably Skye, too.

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I don't want my mum getting mixed up in my life. It makes me hate her. I don't want to hate her. She's lovely. My dad is the one I should hate.

It's wierd when they sit at the same table. It's wierd when my dad flirts with my mum through the window even though she has a significant other. It's wierd when my dad calls my mum to talk some sense into me. It's wierd my mum calls my dad to talk about movies she wants downloaded and burned(put on DVD/CD) for her and the kids.

I admit to reading it. I admit to reading Slave Musings. And enjoy it. In fact, Fred sometimes joins me in reading the entries made by the salve. Sometimes, I consider becoming a slave, too. But then I think of throwing everything away. Would I do that? Am I up to that? Do I really want to throw everything away for a life of obedience and sex?
I admit to being aroused by what goes on in thier lives, but then I think, "Is what they're doing really alright?" I'm not sure myself but I enjoy reading. Fred and I comment in our minds and converse together about it. A few times, he's thought of buying a chasity belt because of his fear of my being taken! I guess the realization of Terry hasn't sunk in, yet.

These are my friends. I talk about them a lot and they respect me. Sometimes, though, they can drag me down to the bottomless pits of hell. They deserve their own place to shine. Input is often.

Rosalie is sixteen. I met her randomly in the streets.

Jamie is sixteen. I met her while fishing one day.

Robert is my age. We met by him offering me fly-tea at a party. I love him.

Kent is sixteen. We met by him helping me with a task/errand.

Kojin is seventeen. Yasuko was being weird and Kojin was drawn to us.

Auirora is seventeen. I met her through Yasuko.

Yasuko is sixteen. She's like my sister. I met her at a party last year. I love her.

Ami is my age. I met her on the second day of high school. She has asperger syndrome.

Dawn is my age. I met him in grade 6. He has ADHD and is bi.

Annie is nineteen. I met her on her dad's farm.

Skye is twenty three. I met him through Annie.

Terry is eighteen. I met him while I was camping. He helped me survive out there. I love him.

Fred is nineteen. I met him. I love him.

I saw Fred last night. He appeared to me at the side of my bed. We talked for a little while before he went into my stuffed rabbit. I huged him and we fell asleep like that.

Turns out, last week, on our date, we confessed quite a few things. He had told me that he would change himself in order to keep me. He also mentioned how conserved I was, and how I actually wanted to do some daring things. What he said is true. Sadly.

I miss Robert. Our situation was wierd. I met by him offering me tea because I was sad that no one liked me at the party. I had said, "No one likes me! I'm an ugly frog!" Then he came and offered some fly-tea. Saying, "No, you're not. You're a very pretty frog." And then we went behind a bush to have tea with flies, because we were frogs.
Later at the party, Yasuko, who is like my sister, started begging people for money because she was new and poor. That was how I met Kojin, actually. Anyway, that's beside the point. Yasuko was the life of the party and actually took the party to another block. That was when Robert started acting wierd. Summer and Alexis chased him around trees and bushes to track him down. Yasuko and I were just... talking and sitting on the grass.
Robert ran into a house and Summer went in after him. I started following after a while, Yasuko not too far behind me.
When Summer came out she said Robert wanted no one to go in; he wanted to be by himself. So, being as bold as I am in that world, I entered the house. I saw Robert in a corner next to the bed. He shouted, "Get out!" at me and I flinched. But, knowing him, I went closer. We talking for a while about stuff and I made sure to choose my words carefully. Very carefully.
That was when he confessed. He liked me? I was speechless for a few minutes and I guessed he thought I had rejected him because he said sorry. I had told him to give me some time, like a week or so.
During the course of the next week, we went to rallies with his friend Firecat, and watched people race cars. There was this one incident, this girl who was, oh, 16? She was Robert's friend, her name was... something starting with an N. I'll call her Nesis. Nesis was moving somewhere far, and it turns out she liked Robert. I foundout when she said something about how she was first and I was second. The memory of Robert confessing came up and I wanted to smile and say, "He likes me. Not you." I refrained from saying it, of course. A little while after Robert came back, Nesis left.
Over the week, there were people who thought Robert and I were a couple. Over ten, actually. And everytime, I made a big deal out of it. At one point, when we reached the ten mark, he had said, "Is that bad?" I said, "No, it's not." And then we started talking about it.
Near the end of the Summer Festival last year, we got into a big fight. After the Summer Festival, he moved. We were still in a fight when he moved.
I was extremely saddened by this, because I had wanted to tell him that I had fallen for him and wanted to know if he still liked me. Never happened. We haven't spoken since.
I still really like Robert. We were really close. In fact, when I introduced Dawn to him, he thought we were a couple! Ha!

I've mildly moved on. There's a Terry now, who's eighteen and I really like, and then there's a Fred, who's nineteen and I really like and am practically married to. But whatever happens between Fred and I doesn't change anything between Terry and I or Robert and I. Because I love Robert, and that loev will forever last until he returns, and the love I have for Terry will only last until his dies out first. So, you could say I really like three guys right now. Two of which I'm seeing and one of which I am hopelessly in love with.
No, it's not called cheating. Because Fred is more like a sex buddy than anything.